Before I cut my hair and created an afro, people thought my Arabic was perfect and that I had resided here in the Occupied Territories all my life. But when I embraced my curls and the nest that rests upon my head, I suddenly became a foreigner. It just does not make sense in my mind, how it can be that when I do accept my natural hair, my natural being in my natural homeland, my new conceptual being creates me into a foreigner. This place is just full of paradoxes.
Today I visited the apartheid wall, and I realized my identity was not the drawings painted on the cement slabs. It was not the landscape that was separated by the barrier, the hills, and valleys, and villages. My identity was the space between each slab, inches deep in the massive barrier. It did not bleed, but hid between massive entities, people who spoke on my behalf, made decisions, drew boundaries. It was that tiny space that society left for me. I could speak, but it would be between two worlds. My hair would be indigenous yet at the same time alien. When the wall does come apart, and there is no space, no cement, no guns, and just freedom, when there is room for my giant hair, what would Palestine be?
yesterday some lady on campus approached us promoting some deal on hair salons, if you have hair I'm sure they've approached you at least once. after giving her spiel she asked each one of us if we were interested and I declined saying I can't go to just any salon because no one knows what to do with curly hair. she goes, "oh we have salons for ethnic hair too!" ...I thought that was a trip, how hair is divided into "ethnic" and what? non-ethnic?...it's the same old division, this is the standard and here is the deviation.
ReplyDeleteone of my friends went back to iran for the first time in a really long time. this was in the 90s, and she was at a family party that was mixed at first. once the men left, she took off her scarf, and she noticed that everyone was just staring at her with fallen faces. she didn't know what was wrong until they took off their scarves: in order to "prep" themselves for her visit, they had all dyed their hair blonde.
ReplyDeletethat gave me chills.
ReplyDeletewow beeta.
ReplyDeletealso, isnt it interesting how we perceive white people to be culture-less or ethnicity-less simply because they have no "pigmentation" or skin color? ...Yet, the "white" race displays the largest range of hair color more than any other race on earth. Think about it.